I think I have lost interest in dating. How exactly is that possible? During Mardi Gras, I walked out on Ryan while we were fooling around. I give out a fake phone number to all of the boys I meet these days. Even visiting Chris bores me. Something has to be wrong with me - how can I fix it?
Aaron and Erica are back together. It's okay, though, because I've come to expect these things from him. I honestly just can't bring myself to care. It's funny, though, because my first reflex when I saw him leaving her apartment was to be really angry. It's so easy to avoid dealing with my actual feelings by focusing them into anger. I think that's why I was so upset a few weeks ago - he was so understanding and sincere about his feelings for me that I didn't have anything to be angry about anymore, and I didn't know how to deal with that.
I still care about him, of course, but not in the same way. I know better than to hope for a future with him. He'll always mean worlds to me, though, because he is an incredible person and we had some really incredible experiences. But it finally feels completely natural to be free of him. I'm glad we have some closure now; I really needed that.
So I've moved on - to being happily single. I don't understand this concept at all. These days I would seriously rather be doing my chemistry homework than meeting new boys. This is not normal behavior for me. At all. Someone help me.
nicole: 19-year-old LSU sophomore. biochemistry, pre-med. native new orleanian. starbucks barista. borderline alcoholic. addicted to facebook, red bull and vodka, and college football. a little neurotic, extremely indecisive, and often irresponsible.
I think I have lost interest in dating. How exactly is that possible? During Mardi Gras, I walked out on Ryan while we were fooling around. I give out a fake phone number to all of the boys I meet these days. Even visiting Chris bores me. Something has to be wrong with me - how can I fix it?
