It kills me to have to wait until Elise goes to class to blog. I want my laptop to be fixed. I suppose I could look at it as a good thing that I have to get a new laptop now, because that one was over 5 years old, but I really can't afford this right now.
I hate how money holds me back on a regular basis - it's because of money that I'm at LSU instead of NYU, and as much as I love it here, I'm bitter about that on a regular basis.
I would elaborate on that, but I'm in a good mood today, and I don't want to ruin it. For some reason (maybe Tuesday night), I'm full of self-confidence all of a sudden. This is a very good thing, seeing as how I've been torturing myself over my self-image for the past few weeks.
It's hard to write anything of substance in the short time that Elise is in German class. I like that I'm being consistent about writing here, but at least with my last journal, when I wrote once or twice a month, it was about something that I cared about. At least, most of the time.
I don't miss all of the whining that I used to do about Aaron, though. Those entries make me cringe every time I read them. But it's good that I'm able to acknowledge that I've grown up a lot since then. I used to talk a lot about becoming independent from the opposite gender. I think I've finally accomplished that goal. And I'm proud of myself for that.
nicole: 19-year-old LSU sophomore. biochemistry, pre-med. native new orleanian. starbucks barista. borderline alcoholic. addicted to facebook, red bull and vodka, and college football. a little neurotic, extremely indecisive, and often irresponsible.
